Dear Diary:

You know... I've been thinking. You need a name. I mean, other than 'diary' or 'journal.' Those names seem too cliche and boring. I think I shall call you Himitsu since you keep all my thoughts and secrets. Isn't it a cute name? I'm sure everything I've told you so far, even though there's only one entry so far , is way more than anyone at school or anyone I know knows about me. As you're probably guessed, I'm so extremely shy. And being an outcast at school doesn't help much for sparking conversations with people. Even then, being shy, its so hard trusting people with my secrets, especially since none of my peers like me much. But I can trust you, right? I know you won't tell a soul anything I whisper to you... hence your name. =)

Ooh, Kaolite-san got me so mad today. She's my dad's top assistant at his science lab, even though she doesn't act very professional. She wears these revealing clothes and acts all flirty around papa. She even acts all nice to me while he's around, but once he's gone, she reveals her other face and becomes mean and cruel. She teases me... its mostly little things, but she does it so much that it adds up... it gets me so mad! And she laughs when she sees I'm mad. So I always try to show her that she can't get to me... even though she always does and I'm boiling inside. One day she'll see how it feels...

Oh, I went to the park today. I have this bench which is my favorite of mine where I sit all the time and read. I don't really like reading at the library much... its too stuffy and there's so many people... especially if a classmate comes in... then the room automatically becomes really stuffy. In the park, there are more places to run if some mean bully desides to bother me. Plus, I love to listen to the children play and laugh. Their happiness makes me happy for some reason.

Well, I'm now sitting in my room with a few of the smaller lamps on for light... I think I should go to bed now... Sayonara, Himitsu!

~Hotaru-chan